I’ve been thinking a lot about trauma – how it affects us and how it’s passed on. Trauma nearly consumed my mother and, unfortunately, it was a major trauma that led to her eventual, slow and painful death. My mother…
I’ve Been Thinking About Trauma
I’ve Been Thinking About Bad Sex
My mother experienced multiple forms of sexual assault. She was molested by a cousin as a child, she had an abusive husband, a boyfriend who broke her jaw, and of course the most traumatic one of all – was raped,…
Turning Grief into Art
Turning Grief into Art Hello friends! As many of you know my mother passed away last December. I believe firmly in turning my pain into something, hopefully, beautiful and powerful and I’m now working on an intimate and immersive piece…
Processing grief into art
Last year in December, while my mother’s health was quickly declining and while I was in the middle of devising a new show I had a vision of a movement dance piece inspired by my relationship with my mother. It’s…
The Phoenix
Your life was pain and suffering trauma after trauma but you continued living molested as a child abused by a husband you lived in your car raped stabbed left for dead a broken jaw by a boyfriend used abused and…
Phantom Pain
Whenever I have something to share I want to reach out to you and then I remember that you… the phantom pain awakens and it clenches its tentacles around my chest my throat squeezing tears from my eyes then it…
My mother bit my thumb on Christmas Eve
My mother bit my thumb on Christmas Eve. A fighter till the end, as her body shut down she snapped and jerked and gasped for breath. I held her hand as I tried to control her kicking legs then suddenly…
For Mama
I’m hurtling towards the earth when panic starts to set in. I go to pull the ripcord of the chute. Nothing. I look behind me, there is no parachute. There’s nothing I can do. I think to myself, “How am…
I Think About “Where”
You were supposed to come visit us this past summer but were too weak to do so. “Don’t worry, you’ll come when you’re stronger,” I told you. But you’ve only grown weaker. Now I’m afraid you never will. I think of…
I’ve been thinking about Dreaming
Remember how back in January I said I was going to do a monthly “Thinking” series? Well I did two and then dropped it. Not that I’ve not been thinking but rather I’ve been thinking so many complex things that…